All-Art-Goes

what happened to me? why is it I've been depressed since I was 13? why is my childhood so foggy? why are there blanks and gaps in my memory? why do I overeat, to the point of self harm? did you know eating disorders are linked to childhood sexual abuse? why have I always known what sex is, even at the age of three? I distinctly remember the scene that bordered on bondage, from Disney's Aladdin. why am I so afraid of men, especially of ones with mustaches? I have never felt comfortable in their presence actually, it started at age eleven I started to get a tightness in my chest, and a knot in my throat, whenever I was in the presence of men, as if they were always about to take advantage. and I don't run and I don't freeze, I hide . I try to convince them I don't exist, I make myself small, I get out & stay out of the way. I get very quiet, I know I have nothing of value to say, girls are mindless. why is it that during my fourth grade summer break, I had no problem with